I'm kind of lost in my own thoughts of you

I can't believe what you did to me

Calling me a bitch because I speak what's on my mind

For you it's just a memory but for me it still lives on

It's not so easy to forget

All the years you violated me

What did I do to deserve this slow burn

I often wonder why I carry all this guilt

When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built

And it hurts my soul because I can't let go

All these walls are caving in

I can't stop my suffering

I hate to show that I've lost control

Because I keep going right back

To the one thing I need to walk away from

The bruises fade but the pain remains the same

And I still remember how you kept me so afraid

And every morning that I wake I look back at yesterday

And I'm okay

I am beautiful no matter what you say

Words can't bring me down

I am beautiful in every single way

So don't you bring me down today

I won't let you break me

I'm leaving today

Saying farewell to every single lie

And all the fears I've held too long inside

Turning down the memories of yesteryears

And broken dreams

But now I've found I'm feeling strong

And I'm moving on

I'm finally free

I never want to dwell on the pain again

There's no use in reliving how I hurt back then

Remembering too well the hell I felt when I was running out of faith

After all of the stealing and cheating

You probably think that I hold resentment for you

But you're wrong

Because if it wasn't for all that you did

I wouldn't know how capable I am to pull through

So I want to say thank you

Because it makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

It makes me that much wiser

So thanks in the end for making me a fighter.


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